So I am just really upset. I know that Gracie is not my daughter, because I didn't give birth to her. So yes I guess in that sense she is not my daughter. But if anyone saw the way she looks at me when she is with me, you would see that she is my daughter. Whether I gave birth to her or not. She loves me just as much as I love her. Now for my fear. Gracie is going to be with Tori Wednesday morning through Saturday afternoon. I am so scared that she is going to bond with Tori and not love me anymore. Why am I so afraid that she is going to love me less. I am good with her. I love her. I miss her. I miss her so much it hurts to try not crying. I have to hold it back, but I can't do it anymore. I keep hearing her crying in her room for more water in her sippy cup, why does it have to hurt this bad. How can a woman who commits fraud and infidelity and a whole list of other things keep getting what she wants. I don't understand. I don't like it. I just hurt so bad right now and it isn't even coming from the pregnancy, this is worse pain on top of that pain. I just don't know how to talk to Jon about it. She is his daughter..technically not mine. I just want to stop feeling so bad. I want Gracie back.
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